raqueljoy (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} raqueljoy) wrote,@ 2007-03-31 11:44:00 |
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guilty.
Motherhood of 2 young children 2 years apart has pretty much been a study on guilt lately.
You feel guilty because you have to make a choice of one child over the other many times, because you haven't had s*ex in close to 3 weeks, because the kids were noisy and woke your very tired husband up at 6 am on a Saturday.
You feel guilty because you really want them to just be quiet so you can get into the shower (after not having taken one for 72 hours), so you can just empty the dishwasher, so you can just put some makeup on for your party this afternoon.
You feel guilty because you sleep with the little one in the bed and you told yourself you wouldn't, that the older one has bugars in her hair and is currently screaming her little lungs out from her crib - "Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!"
You feel guilty because you walked to Target and shopped there for an hour and a half, much too long for a 2 month old and a 2 year old to stay sane. You feel guilty because you fed the 2 year old cookies from the Target snack station just to make her happy.
Guilty because you haven't read your Bible in weeks, guilty because when your husband comes home the house is a mess. Guilty because whenever you are on the computer, even for a minute, you should be doing something else. Wherever you sit down in your house, there is a mess to be cleaned or something to do.
Guilty because you shouldn't even be thinking these things, you're lucky to have two wonderful children.
Guilty because you haven't stuck to your diet, you're terrible at calling your friends back, and when you do, you can only talk for a little while because someone needs you soon after you pick up the phone.
Guilty because your elderly neighbor likes to stand outside and talk, but you really can't when you have a 2 year old running toward the street and the baby is screaming his lungs out because he's hungry.
Guitly because you should be enjoying these times, ALL the time, because the kids grow up too fast, everyone says. Guilty because you know you adore your kids and are able to laugh at the silly things they do, but you should do that more.
Guilty, guilty, guilty.
Guilty.
Motherhood of 2 young children 2 years apart has pretty much been a study on guilt lately.
You feel guilty because you have to make a choice of one child over the other many times, because you haven't had s*ex in close to 3 weeks, because the kids were noisy and woke your very tired husband up at 6 am on a Saturday.
You feel guilty because you really want them to just be quiet so you can get into the shower (after not having taken one for 72 hours), so you can just empty the dishwasher, so you can just put some makeup on for your party this afternoon.
You feel guilty because you sleep with the little one in the bed and you told yourself you wouldn't, that the older one has bugars in her hair and is currently screaming her little lungs out from her crib - "Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!"
You feel guilty because you walked to Target and shopped there for an hour and a half, much too long for a 2 month old and a 2 year old to stay sane. You feel guilty because you fed the 2 year old cookies from the Target snack station just to make her happy.
Guilty because you haven't read your Bible in weeks, guilty because when your husband comes home the house is a mess. Guilty because whenever you are on the computer, even for a minute, you should be doing something else. Wherever you sit down in your house, there is a mess to be cleaned or something to do.
Guilty because you shouldn't even be thinking these things, you're lucky to have two wonderful children.
Guilty because you haven't stuck to your diet, you're terrible at calling your friends back, and when you do, you can only talk for a little while because someone needs you soon after you pick up the phone.
Guilty because your elderly neighbor likes to stand outside and talk, but you really can't when you have a 2 year old running toward the street and the baby is screaming his lungs out because he's hungry.
Guitly because you should be enjoying these times, ALL the time, because the kids grow up too fast, everyone says. Guilty because you know you adore your kids and are able to laugh at the silly things they do, but you should do that more.
Guilty, guilty, guilty.
Guilty.
